January 8,2026 R⚖️M
Let’s talk about clowns. HaHaHaHaHa
Ever since she was a little girl she was terrified of clowns. She didn’t understand and still doesn’t understand why clowns terrify her. That subject she avoids thinking about. It’s just too spooky.
Especially the memory when celebrating Halloween at a haunted hayride attraction spot, with a group of friends in adulthood time era. The haunted barn attraction, everything about it was great. We were having fun, getting spooked. Being spooked for fun is different than being targeted to be terrorized, psychologically in a dark way.
She remembers seeing the clown from a distance and their eyes locked. She felt like she just saw a ghost. Her face looked away but the clown already knew she was terrified, and it decided to walk up to her, taunt her, and make her squirm in fear. The clown was pretty much dancing around her trying to get her attention. The clown enjoyed the effect. She was so happy once she left that part of the barn scenery walk tour.
What makes no sense was she used to watch bozo the clown from “Bozos Circus” tv show, sometimes after 1975.
Bozo was created by WWll former lieutenant Livingston who produced a children’s storytelling record album and illustrated read along book set for Capital records in 1946, while the TV show ended in the year 2001).
She remembers watching that tv show from having a memory image glance of bozo the clown in her mind. He seemed as being happy and laughing on stage. She just doesn’t remember the episodes she watched but thinks that Bozo was a happy, funny and a kind clown.
So, that means that she does like clowns in a way, but dislikes most clowns because somehow to her the ones she is afraid of are very evil, who wants to do harm to people. In a way it makes one think on how a young child can think that way about clowns. How did this child get that thought?
In adulthood time frame, The Joker from the Batman movies from DC Comics
(formally known as a criminal called Red Hood and where the Joker is actually “an Idea”, where it signifies the character as being less a single individual and more as being a symbol of an anti-establishment uprising and chaos that is born from societal neglect and inequality),she liked very much. She still does actually. Seeing the Joker, as a person who is misunderstood, who may actually really be the good guy, who been beaten down in society, to become the government’s worst nightmare. Giving the joker time to giving a hard time to the people in the government within a government and the people that are on their side as their controlled puppets. They were actually the real villains The Joker enjoyed playing around with.
I wouldn’t know but what I do know is that it’s just entertainment. it’s not real
How about Captain Spaulding, from the movie “House of a Thousand Corpses” , “The Devil Rejects” and “3 from Hell”?
Captain Spaulding was a character playing homage to the character Captain Jeffrey T. Spaulding from the 1930 Marx Brothers film “Animal Crackers”, who was known as being a notorious grease paint monster.
She also liked this clown, and still does. Captain Spalding was just a non fictional character, a human who was sent to an orphanage at the age of 5 to endure several beatings which would be the start days of events where his troublesome begins. This time was also when he was developing interest in side shows, where he created his clown self image named Mr dingdong of Bobo, before changing his name to Captain Spaulding
But…
Now for the movie IT, Pennywise,
that character was a ship shifting, ancient cosmic entity from the macro verse that arises on Earth in a meteor, hibernating for centuries and Awakening every 27 years to feed on the fears terrorizing children, by taking the form of a clown.
What about the infamous killer clown, John Wayne Gacy, who murdered at least 33 boys and young men in the 1970s.
Mr Gacy would call his clown self as Pogo the clown. He’ll entertain in children’s parties, parade, and charity events in his suburban Chicago community.
She doesn’t like these two clowns, these types of characters, whether fictional or true, since she was a child.
In my opinion, I wonder if by accident she saw something playing on the TV that she should’ve not watched, during commercials.
I found that Mr Gacy was arrested on December 21st 1978 and was convicted of the 33 murders in trial on March of 1980. Lil Dove, would have been 5 years old, but wouldn’t that age be too young to understand such ugly and dark news like this on TV? I would think she’ll be too busy playing with toys and watching cartoons like strawberry shortcake and the Care bears.
So, whether you like clowns or don’t like clowns, the real question would be, why some children grow up being afraid or hate clowns, versus other children that don’t mind clowns, in adulthood.
Now this is something to think about🧑💻